I'm headed straight for the castle,
They wanna make me their queen.
And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean.
I'm headed straight for the castle,
They’ve got the kingdom locked up.
And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut.
Straight for the castle.»
I've always cared too much. About everything. But this song in particular is connected to a hard period of my life (I think it was May of 2016.)
The period when I was trying to mend the heart of the man I loved. I was trying to help him get over a girl he kept loving even when he started dating me. And it was painful. And I wanted to end it. He was driving me crazy. And the fact that I couldn't help him made me feel so powerless and useless.
"I can't help you fix yourself,
But at least I can say I tried".
And I did try. Very hard. "I'm sorry, but I gotta move on with my own life". And I so desperately wanna move on. I'm trying really hard.
But I still care too much and it's very painful. Sometimes I just wanna be a cold-hearted bitch.