sound of my voice
17 March
so very much failed
Apparently, my heart is not gonna consult with my brain.
Good job, Ann. Good fucking job.
I guess we're gonna see where this'll take me.
10 March
oh hell no
Not this again. Please. I don't need this.
I have no time. And, honestly, no desire.
IT'S TOO COMPLICATED
a new low
Wow. Yes, great, Ann. Let's get so stressed you randomly cry and be hysterical. A fucking dream, right?
1 January

So. Let's wrap things up a little. 2017 was hard. Much better than 2016, but still hard. I've had a stressful last, err, half a year and I'm glad it's over. But let's focus on the goood stuff here, shall we?
I've become a camp counselor and I loved it! My first two shifts were very complicated, but I enjoyed them nonetheless. And I've met SO many people this year, it's crazy.
I've entered my second year at university and this semester was difficult. But I still love studying and that's what's important.
I finally have my own flat! This is insane, I still cannot believe it sometimes. And since I do, I have my beautiful big bookshelves now! That's the real joy of life.
I also adopted a cat from a shelter. Her name is Gloria and she likes to bite, but she also likes to kiss and is generally very smart and pretty. I love her.
I've realized how important it is to be a feminist in this world and I'm proud to be one!
Some of my friendships have blossomed and matured and I appreciate it so much. AND I gained some new friends!
I went to see a musical I was dying to see! Onegin's Demon. Gods, it was absolutely amazing and I definitely wanna see it again. As well as the other musicals those guys have.
I also went to a concert this year. LSP. Didn't realize I could actually enjoy such music, I guess I was wrong. Cause I enjoyed the concert a lot.
New album by Taylor Swift was so amazing I feel like mentioning it here.

See? I've had a great year even with all the stress and sleepless nights and anxiety. I hope next one is gonna be even better.
Hello, 2018! I'm ready for it!

21 December

«

I'm headed straight for the castle, They wanna make me their queen. And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean. I'm headed straight for the castle, They’ve got the kingdom locked up. And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut. Straight for the castle.»
— Halsey - Castle
11 November

«

They're burning all the witches even if you aren't one.»
— Taylor Swift - I did something bad
I feel better.
31 October
so dumb
So… My cat's got a ringworm. That's not nice. And nah, she's fine ans will be fine.
The stupid part is that I can get it as well, if my immune system is weak. And guess who fucking got sick a day ago? Me! Yay! Fucking hate myself right now.
Also, I hope Gloria is not too bored in the bathroom by herself. I can't even be with her, really.
18 October
feel broken
So, I'm back with my god-awful mood. Yup. It's sticking. I thought it'd go away, but it's here to stay.
I don't know if it's just autumn depression or something worse. Good things happen to me one after another and I don't feel them. Only realize them with my mind.
It's been almost two months and I still feel bad, the pills that usually tone down my anxiety didn't help and I don't know what to do.
Books help a little bit, but not for long, only while I'm reading and maybe right after…
I hope it passes soon. I can't go on like that. It's exhausting.
27 September
insane
When you cry because you find out that a side character you loved in a trilogy is getting his own duology… I mean… Yeah.
I love books more than people.
25 September
Gods, I love literature!
11 September

«

Каждому дьяволу положен свой ангел, И ты нашла меня на городской свалке, Запачкав девственные крылья пылью, Унесла, ведь я был таким жалким. »
— ЛСП - Канат
3 September
of-fucking-course
Tomorrow is the first day of school and I got sick. Have a fever. And it's come from 37,7 to 38,1 already.
10 August
10th, 11th & 12th episodes of season 9
I hate and love Doctor Who. HOW DARES THIS SHOW DO THIS TO ME?
Crying. Just silently crying.

UPD: WHAT IS THIS? How can they make it even more emotional, wtf? No way. They reversed it… Damn.

UPD: And that Christmas special. Jesus. Precious.
5 August

«

Вообще, хотелось бы кончить в вечность, но уже давно Это удалось кому-то, судя по млечному пути»
— ЛСП - Плевок в вечность